So, Rawk Mom is a state of mind. It is the balance between being a mom and a responsible woman, and pursuing individualistic goals. There are moments when one outweighs the other in want..especially now. I am in a state of constant pull. I get really nostalgic about my past, and want to cling on to the feelings of marriage and motherhood, and travel. That is what defined me for a long time. I realized that is because without my "problems" and struggles and sadnesses that have brought me to this new chapter or at least the new exploration into possible futures, I really enjoy having a family and knowing that there are people who love me and I can love. It makes it hard and confusing for me to know what I am supposed to do or if I am looking at everything from the correct angles, and so forth.
I had a heartfelt conversation today that just leaves me paralyzed. Today.
Maybe tomorrow I will have something witty to say? I can't wait for that day. I am a poet and I know it. :)
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